okay time untuk merapu!!

Okay...aku tak tahu nak cakap apa pasal entry kali ni....BUT WAIT!!
Aku nak citer ni,,sebnarnyakan...tuari...aku kapel ngan satu budak laki lain...
*alah kan aku da citer pasal r/s aku yg da break tu kan??
hah kali ni laki lain..muahahahah....tapi...ini kali,aku sendiri yang mintak putus...
Huh...aku sebanrnya bosan jer! Macam best jer hidup single...duit pun tak pakai banyak
o0o0o0o0...tahu kenapa? sebab kalau aku kapel... rm10 pun tak smp seminggu da abis...
tak caya...cuba buat ni

              RM10 X 1 MINGGU (7 HARI) = RM10

              DALAM SEBULAN ADA 4 MINGGU...

RM10 X 4 MINGGU = RM40

AMBIL CONTOH AKU KAPEL SELAMA 5 BULAN

(RM10 X 4) X 5 BULAN = KOPAK DUIT AKU

Hah..sooooooo kalau nk jimat duit...aku pun lupakanlah hal hal kapel..tu..muahahahah.. so jangan lah nak kecik hati sangat...umur aku 18 genap nanti aku kapel balik aeh..hahahahahah

              

i am being ordinary me again

So after awhile..i really do think i need A break! muahahaha.. It's just that, i am so
sick and tired after all i've been through! Get it?? well if no, then let me get that fixed!
Sometimes, idk why i can't help feeling so mad at my sister but also on the other side,i just
won't let go off her! Gee~~ for me breaking up is not difficult,but breaking apart is HARD!
So there, i wish that,i can just walk through anyone's life and keep all the memories to
myself, but i don't want then to get hold the memories, cause i don't want them to hang in
there waiting for the same presence! No! It's just not me! I am difficult at sometimes, but i am not
easy all the time. Blahhhh who cares!

So i bid adieu...

let's go!

Hahahaha...meyh..minah serampit *betulkah ejaan aku?? nak bercerita.. So sudah agak lama aku tak menghadap muka kakak aku yang terlebih comel itu.. HAHAHAHAHA!! jangan salah faham.. aku sebenarnya merajuk ngan dia. *Aeh,aku pun tak tahulah siapa yang merajuk ni sebenarnya. Kay whatever..
Then,aku kebetulan dapat gaji pada 10 Januari...fuh...time tu lah muka bersinar sinar...setelah penat aku bekerja macam nak gila, akhirnya dapat jugak duitnya *HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I LIED! Aku sebenarnya kerja 4 hari jorrrrr....So,aku paksa kawan kakak aku untuk bawak kakak aku gi MCD. *konon nak kidnap ah... tapi awalnya nk pergi 12 Jan,tp tak jd...So akhirnya pada 19 Januari baru aku pergi.. Hey...susah taw nak pujuk kakak aku yang 3/4...sumpah annoying! Tahu tak...pada 18 Jan,aku bg kakak aku ayat yg mcm nak putus asa,akhirnya kakak aku reply..walawey..sumpah annoying doe. dah ah buat aku nangis jer!!! Tetiba dia reply and kata "Raihan rindu kakak?" aku jawablah "Raihan dah belajar untuk hidup sendiri" then selang 5 minit, dia reply "I miss you sooo much bla bla bla" tapi waktu tu sumpah aku merajuk gila! Then kakak aku mesej pukul 5:36 pagi, Dia kata "Hari ni jadi. Amik time lunch" HAMBOI!! Ingat aku boleh drive kah?? Nasib baik kawan aku yang setia *hehehe...actually kawan kakak aku....yang ambil and hanatr aku!! Muahahahhahaahahahah...so berbekalkan duit and etc,akhirnya,aku pun belanja dorang MCD!! *Tercapai hasrat aku,sebab kakak aku ni...mereng jugak taw! Tengah syok makan,sekali,datang sorang minah yang tengah interview aku *time tu ah rasa mcam feymes...BAJET!! HAhahahaha...balik jer,aku kata ah...taknak balik!! Kakak and kak mira kena buat my enviroment more stimulating tahu tak! so...kitorang gi booktalk... *sumpah aku cakap!apa kes kitorang lepak situ??nampak sangatlah kitorang ni nerd...aku nampak buku SPM terus muak..lagi lagi buku add maths and fizik..melayang jiwa di situ...lol!!Kay...pastu gi kacau si Effa...kat K3...comel doe tgok kawan aku kerja..da lah pendek..macam budak 7 tahun kerja jer..hahahahah...

So balik,,,baru amik gmbar *lembab gila!!!! Ni hah picture nya

Jadi aku?

Hmm..so lepas aku putus ni,aku pun tak tahu nak buat apa. Aku bosan sey! kalau tak, dulu, hari hari sms. kalau tak sms, macam dosa besar gitu! Apakah??? *letak tangan kat bahu ,mata tengok atas dan mulut ternga nga sikit! Hahahaha *sila faham,yang kewarasan akal aku macam nak hilang jer nampak gayanya!
LOL! Huh...kalau tak dulu,siang malam aku hanya diisi dengan bunyi handphone dan membuang masa memikirkan dia! meh aku citer kisah percintaan kami! Buang masa aku fikirkan cinta. So apakah arti cinta sebenarnya ni?? *arti cinta ini sudah menelan waktuku,siang malam hanya untuk fikirkan engkau,sejuta kali aku berani bersumpah,diriku tanpamu,apa artinya cinta

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Awalnya,pada awal tahun 2012,aku dapat 1 nota kat timeline Fb gue! *bahasa indon sikit..cop..notakah??
Ok ok,pastu si dia tulis, "hey,nak nombor boleh?" hamboi,beraninya awak aeh..then aku dengan lagak minah poyo pun menjawab, "hee...awak ni mimpikah??" *lebih kurang gitulah ayat aku!
Then dia tak terus jawab...
tetapi pada 7 April,dia chat ngan aku! WOW!! ini sudah bagus!!

• Conversation started April 1
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  2:36pm

  Nur Raihan Roslan

  017 teken tekan terjatuh...hahahah...
  *aku bagilah number aku!!
• April 7
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  9:28pm

  S

  sory laa..phone rsak arh....
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  9:29pm

  Nur Raihan Roslan

  Hehe...takpe...asal nk number??
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  9:30pm

  S

  017 tekan tekan terjatuh...hahahah...
  *maaf number dia,hanya aku seorang sahaja yang boleh tahu..
  sim card off tau...
• 

  9:34pm

  Nur Raihan Roslan

  Ouh...ok..hmm bley ta kita jmper ary isnin?? Waktu rehat..kat blkng klas kite..nk tnya something..jgn risau..kita tak mkn org
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  9:36pm

  S

  xde tmpt len ker..
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  9:37pm

  Nur Raihan Roslan

  Hmm kat library...kat tangga tingkat 3...bley??
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  9:38pm

  S

  bley....
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  9:40pm

  Nur Raihan Roslan

  Ok...nnti kita jumper...takpe..kita ta marah...haaha...ea kwn2 awk ta kcau ke nanti??
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  9:42pm

  S

  xlarh...g sorg jer arh....awk bwa mmbr ker...
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  9:42pm

  Nur Raihan Roslan

  Taklah...silap ary blan...dorg kacau..lg susah...hmm awk on slaku ary ape??

  Slalu*
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  9:44pm

  S

  on sim ker ...online..
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  9:45pm

  Nur Raihan Roslan

  Haah...hahaa..henfon rosak?? Ksian..kbye..ti call jer...jmpe ary isnin...kat blkng..jgn ta dtg
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  9:46pm

  S

  dtang.....ktawe kn org....
  x baek tau...
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  9:47pm

  Nur Raihan Roslan

  Haaha...yelah..gelak jer...kbye..nyte
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  9:48pm

  S

  nytee...bye...

  
  

  
  

  
  

  K aku rasa macam nak melalak jer baca balik ini chatting!! BOOO!!! Kfine... dilanjutkan ceritera aku yang macam drama yang dalam tv3 tu..So kitorang pun bermesej mesej pada waktu malam. Sumpah aku dah hilang feeling waktu nk sms ngan dia..Almaklumlah,dia ni setakat crush aku waktu form 3 jorr...waktu form 5,da hilang da. Tetapi *music please! teng treng teng treng..lalala....
  

  
  

  
  

  Satu malam tu, dia tanya aku, kita ni couple ke?? memang patut pun dia tanya gitu,yerlah,da mesej2 saban malam,takkan takde feeling ape ape pun kan kan??

  So yeah, aku cakaplah, tak kut..and aku tanya dia,dia kata kit mcam couple lah. Dan aku cakap ah, hmm kita tak bersedia,apa kata kita jd kawan dulu?? Then jyeaaaaaaahhhhhhh dia terus majuk.Tak sms ngan aku smp 2 bulan lamanya. majuk letuw! macamlah kita tak tahu! ==' *aku rasa mesti dia bengang gila!!
  

  
  

  Pada malam raya,aku menagambil inisiatif untuk sms dia dulu. awalnya setakat nak ucap selamat hari raya and maaf sebab menolak cinta awak...

  Ceyh...dia kata dia tak marah aku? WHAT?? Biar Betik?? Oh well *flip hair!!
  

  
  

  
  

  So,pastu aku pun tertidur..hmm kitorang kembali rancak bermesej mesej balik waktu lepas trial...tetiba kawan aku punya ayat masuk dalam kepala aku "Mak antar kau gi sekolah bukan untuk bercinta.." *merepek apa aku ni??

  hari tu,tyme hari graduasi..tetiba aku nampak dia pakai baju warna biru.dan khaled,lelaki yang aku puja *woaaahhh ayat!! pun pakai baju biru! *Hoi!!Korang ni kenapa?? =='
  So aku nampak dia main ngan ipad. ceyh..aku pun ade taw!Ipad mini lagi,baru plak tu,baru beli kelmarin *POYO!!
  Hmm so aku adelah nangis sikit sikit..sesi menangis tu mengingatkan aku dengan lagu teman pengganti,almaklumlah,akukan da nak abis sekolah *waktu tulah..hahaha
  

  
  

  So ntah kenapa,keesokan harinya,waktu tengah dekat pizza hut *jamuan PRS and pengawas perpustakaan.. 1/11/2012, aku mesej dia and kata "Saya terima cinta awak!"
  

  
  

  Woah!! tak sampai 5 minit dia terus jawab,dengan penuh semangat.. "iyakah??Hahaha!!"

  Tahulah awak excited sayang!! LOL!! So lepas tu,dia sms aku sampai kul 12 lebih...

  And sms dia is "selamat malam sayang! Love you!" huhuhuhu....WAAAAAAAAA.... S SAYA RINDU SMS AWAK!!! 

  
  

  Huhuhu..hmm hampir setiap malam dia sms aku! tapi ntah di mana silapnya,hubungan kitorang tak kekal lama,walaupun dia selalu sms aku,tapi semacam hambar! Macam ikan masin,tpi tak masin?? *apa kaitannya??
  

  
  

  Huhuhuhuh...kenapa awak ceraikan saya?? *Merepek apa aku ni?? 
  

  
  

  S...Kalau awak baca ni, tahukah awak yang saya sayang awak sangat sangat?? Sayang awak ketat ketat!! Saya nak awak!! Saya nak awak!! *Guling guling atas katil sambil peluk bantal!
  

  
  

  KBAI!! Aku nak sambung nangis!!

  
  

  
  

  
  

  
  

  
  

  
  

Aku pergi pada 31 December

SSo,kalau orang da tak suka kita,apa yang kita nak buat?? Pakse?? Hmm itu bukan cara aku.
Walaupun dia marahkan aku,aku takkan lepaskan dia senang senang...sebab aku masih ada
kewarasan akal. Aku taknaklah menyesal dikemudian hari. Tak ape, sakitkan lah aku berkali kali,
sebab ruang kemaafan untuk dia sentiasa terbuka buat dia. tapi aku rasa sakit hati sangat!!!!!!!!!
rasa macam aku ni bodoh sesangat! Sedangkan dia tak hiraukan aku langsung!! *letak tangan
kat pinggang sambil geleng kepala.. haizzzzz..hmmm kakak aku ni pun satu!! buat hal jer!!!!
aku tak tahu apa salah aku!! tolonglah!! jgn buat raihan macam ni!!!!!!! Raihan da banyak sangat problem..
jadi gila raihan macam ni!!!!!!
Kakak!! *tekup muka sambil nangis and geleng kepala!
Hmm..aku cuma harap,2013 ni, takkan melukakakn hati aku lagi!!!!!!!!!!
aku tak sanggup lagi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hancur waras aku!! semua salah kakak aku and si pemilik hati aku ini!!!!!!! aku dah tak sanggup
lagi dilukai.. *ceyh..ayat!!
k whatever. Happy new year guys!!


dengar ah lagu ni!

This song!

So after i got my heart smashed in to pieces, I've been listening to this song again and again and again!!
Hahaha...it hurts tho...

Tiba-tiba engkau ada
Kemudian engkau hadir
Laksana kerdil ku memeluk
Lihat aku lebih dalam

Di matamu ku melihat
Ada cinta yang tersirat
Sirami hati merebak

Barangkali aku salah
Ku terdiam bukan bisu
Tahu engkau besar malu
Tutupi rasa gelisah

Biar saja waktu nanti
Yang menikmati kisah ini
Bersamamu aku senang

Belum juga kah kau menyadarinya
Akulah yang pantas untuk kau cintai
Di bawah langit biru aku bersumpah
Diriku tanpamu apa artinya cinta

Arti cinta ini sudah menelan waktuku
Siang malam hanya untuk pikirkan engkau
Sejuta kali aku berani bersumpah
Diriku tanpamu apa artinya cinta

Biar saja waktu nanti
Yang menikmati kisah ini
Bersamamu aku senang

Belum juga kah kau menyadarinya
Akulah yang pantas untuk kau cintai
Di bawah langit biru aku bersumpah
Diriku tanpamu apa artinya cinta

and i am watching this story...

Broke up

So i just broke up! and i dunno what to do!! I feel so stupid,and restless! Huh!!
and god!! Why do i feel sooooooooo helpless??
Am i that stupid to love him? or am i sooo blind?
Blinded by love? fine, I am sooo stupid.
I still remember his smiles,his laugh and his face! The way he acts,the way he talk and the way he walks.
Damn!! Oh Nur Raihan..stop dreaming! But i always have these doubts in me. Whatever..

where did you go??

Where is he??
Ok since he's gone for a while, boleh aku curang kejap??
Boley aeh sayang!! :) sekejap jer!!
heee

So..this is my new picture...rindu tak nak tengok muka aku??

hee...makin lawa tak??
Agaknya..lawalah kan?? *baling kasut! hahahah


whatever..aku sebenarnya takde topik nak type..so.. aku layan ini video..best sial!!

Girlish

Im girlish..so what?nak aku jadi ape? Tomboy?? ayat yang aku rasa nak bagi penampar!

"You act like a girl! You cry a lot! Don't be silly!"
"Fuck!! What the hell do you think i am? A man? And are you trying to say that girls are SILLY!??" Hmm???" answer that!!

For dumb boys..this is what girls always do!!

#1. We LOVE to TALK!

We have mouth..so why must you stop us from talking hah?? We are alive..so we,as human,really need to talk. Are you saying that we girls,must shut up?? do you like a girl,who does not talk?? i would say, it's the same as if you date a doll or a mannequin! Talk to a cat or something! Shish! Its like saying, don't breath,you're annoying! Grow up lah!

#2. We cry!

We cry! Why? Because you guys,don't understand what girl needs! All you say that we complaint to much! We cry to much! We control you to much! Hey, we girls, love you okay! We cry because we want you to know that we lovee you sooo much! as deep as the ocean! As high as the sky!

#3. We love to shop

We shop so that we look pretty! why? because it's for you,boys! Why? So that you won't look for another girl! Why? Because of love! so tell me, where's your effort to fight for the love you had? we girls,are not games okay!




This is what i wear!

And this:

and not forgetting...THIS


MAKE UP! But i like natural makeup:)

He lied so i cheated!

So i was browsing..and this was what i found:

Hahahaha...sob sob sob...I cried!
you know why? Cause he cheated on me with another girl? He is just a lucky bastard cause even after i left him,my heart longs for him. My mind thinks of him My arms longs for his hugs! "Bitch am i that sentimental? No way! But he really stays in my mind. Because of him,i cant love anyone else after him!
And i met him last saturday...
Fuck this shit! Im out! or else im gonna cry!!

Yeah i got this skinny pants

Well so i went back to singapore and guess what, i got a skinny jeans from my aunty..
well well..i really like that pants,but..urghh i don't want to look fat in that! So yeah,my mum was asking me to lose some weight.hahaha...

"DID I SAY LOSE WEIGHT??"

Neh...probably tomorrow! well that's my idea of procrastination! Hahaha!!

But.. i have to!! cause i don't want my stomach to bulge out cause i just got this nice mini dress! And im
gonna wear it after SPM..hee

So??

Kay...so now what? Mad? what makes you so special that you can scold me all you want?
Is it me being so sensitive or is it you who are being such a paranoid?
If you want me to leave you,then i will! If that makes you happy not seeing my face, then it's fine then! My face is not as beautiful as an angel. As an demurring as your lover's look! Looks,if you don't want me to be in your life,it's fine,then don't come and get mad at me! You make me feel like shit! But still..even if that happens, i want you to know that:

You are the reason for my smiles.
You are the reason for my laughter.
But..
You are also the reason for my sorrows.
You are also the reason for my cries,despair and the tears rolled on my cheeks.
Even for all the things you've done to me, i wont let you go. If im happy,i hope that you can feel what i feel. And when im in despair, i hope that you wont forsake me! Through thick and thin, i wish you would be right by my side. And i hope you wont lie to me! Do you ever realise how much do you mean to me? I kept on forgiving you because i dont wanna let you. If you go,let alone be my companion. I rather get stucked with the memories we had. I rather live under your shadows! Do you know that you could take my 10 years of life in just 1 sentence, 3 words and 12 letters? So tell me,where do i stand in your life?

 Accept the fact that you've gone was the hardest thing in life that i had ever faced.
Accept the fact that you are happier with someone else was the saddest thing that has ever happened to me.
Accept the fact that i am your sorrows when i thought that i was the reason you smiled was the devastating moment of my life.
Accept that you have always crossed my mind when the fact i was not in your mind at all was the most painful thing that has ever happened to me.
But you my dear, i have no grudge towards you nor do i hate you. Having you in my life was the only thing tht enlightens my day! Fullfil my dreams. But when fate does not let us to be together,oh what human art would that be?
Translation
Menerima kenyataan kau tlah pergi adalah sukar buatku.
Menerima kenyataan bahawa kau sudah pergi bersama yang laen adalah kesedihan buatku.
Menerima kenyataan bahawa aku merupakan kesedihan kamu sedangkan aku menyangka diriku penyebab kamu tersenyum adalah sesuatu yang paling pahit untukku terima.
Menerima kenyataan bahawa kau telah melewati fikiranku sedangkan aku tidak pernah berada di fikiran kamu adalah perkara yang menyakitkan hatiku.
Tapi sayang,itu tidak membuatku berdendam sama kamu,kerana kehadiran kamu walaupun sebentar telah membahagiakanku.jadi mengapa harusku menyalahkan takdir apabila takdir yang menyatukan kita dan takdir juga yang memisahkan kita?

So tell me where do i stand? In your life?

If you love someone

If you love someone, don't hurt them like i did!
The way i acted, hurt them a lot!
If you love them, but you have someone else, let them know,let them go,don't hurt them!
I know, because i've tried, and it's bad! very bad!
If you are reading this, i seek forgiveness. cause honestly, i have done you wrong!
You are one in a million and i guess, someone else will love you more then i do!
just try to understand me that sometimes, we are not meant to be together!
I am stupid to let you go! But to be with you hurts me!
To see you smile and laugh makes me happy, but when you know that there are somethings that can separates you, you think you should leave them and go ahead and live your life!
i am not a poetry type of person but..this is what i have to present you:

Butterfly Whisperer

To some stranger you might be nothing at all.
But to me you are why I wake up in the mornings,
You are the reason why am not crying anymore.
You were the gentle man that came along,
And put together the pieces of me someone else had made.
Every time our lips meet its like we have made a trip around the universe,
Just me and you looking down on everyone else.
I know whenever those 3 words are going to be said it will be heaven on earth,
I will melt to the soil beneath your feet.
But now even being reminded you like me calls those butterfly’s to my stomach.
It’s like your voice has a secret code for the butterflies all over the earth,
Every time you speak they always show up.
Just remember,
To a stranger you might mean nothing at all.
But to me you’re my butterfly whisperer,
My smile.

and that is what i have to give you! To tell you. To whisper to you when you're asleep cause i have nothing other then words to please you



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