I will

Sometimes..i do think you.should not blame me for everything that's wrong. It is not entirely my fault.
I may be the one who can make things right. You blame me for every word that came outta of my mouth, 
every quote and every sentence. But do you ever realize that what i say is mostly because of your behavior,actions towards me. Probably im not the right person to say all this. 
You are the reason of my sorrows. And you the one who gave me so much to remember. But if you go on continue to treat me like this. You are so unfair. Have you ever give me the chance to fix everything when 
i screw up? It was always me who gave you the chance, but you took it for granted and 
put the blame on me instead! And when that happens, arguments broke, fight happens but it won't be long cause you know i cant live without texting you, thinking bout you and talk about you. You know that!
It was my weakest point that you have discovered. But for now, i am gonna pull myself up. 
Be like the way i used to be. Before i met you. Before all these things happen. And before we ever talked to each other. Probably i miss you at first.. but then, i do think i can survive without your shield around me.
I have to let go whats not mine. And may you be happy with all the sorrows you gave me. 
The time that I've wasted. And all the bullshit and crappy promises you gave me!
 Don't blame is all i asked for.
All these while, i picked a star and put it in a bottle for you, but it was the moon you're after.
And i know all these quotes, i've given you before. And if you paid attention to everything i've said,
probably you know how much you meant to me. I don't wanna say I love You anymore 
because you have someone better who can say it all to you. You have so many people surrounding
you who could prove their love to you. Maybe it was me, who you cannot see.. The love i've given
you maybe..it's not enough. I gave you stars, you want the moon.
I gave you love all my love..the every bit of me, but you left me with dissapointments.
So probably, when I am gone, you don't have to wonder if I ever think of you.
I am not afraid of heights,deep water or love. I am just afraid of falling, drowning and a broken heart.

If i can live my life without you before we met, it also means i can live without you now.

I have my last say.

I know it's time to let go. Toodles!

Sebenarnya...

Aku tak kisah pun kalau kau nak lupakan aku suatu hari nanti... 
Aku takkan marah kalau kau pergi jauh dari hidup aku suatu hari nanti. 
Aku takkan menyesal kalau suatu hari nanti kalau kita berjumpa..kau akan lupakan aku. 
Sebab walaupun kau da lupakan aku,bencikan aku, atau pergi tinggalkan aku...aku tetap akan ingat kenangan kita. Dan sekiranya kau lupakan aku..aku akan tetap menjadi bintang polaris dalam hidup aku,takkan bertukar tempat walaupun musim berganti yang akan sentiasa menjaga kau, setia menemani kau. Tapi sebelum kau pergi untuk tinggalkan dan lupakan aku..aku nak tanya satu soalan. Kenapa setiap kali aku mahu tersenyum..kau pula membuat aku menangis dan setiap kali aku ingin merindui kau..aku akan kecewa lagi?
Aku pun tak tahu apa akan jadi dengan kita.
Lagi pun..selama ni..yang selalu cakap rindu sayang and etc tu kau..bukan aku..
memanglah aku pun sama..tapi selama ni aku yang make the effort... Kau? Sekali dua adalah...aku??
Selalu..aku jer...K fine..whatever...mungkin selama ni aku bukan yang terbaik untuk kau..
Maybe i have to walk away..sebab kau mungkin ada orang yang lebih fahami kau..bukan macam aku..
cengeng, kuat memberontak..kuat merajuk..marah kau jer...
sorry...Maybe it's my path to end it all till here...

Heartbreaker!

Honestly...IDK what's wrong with me..but there are so many unfortunate and heartbreaking events.
Many people broke my heart but why can't i break theirs?? Life is not fair if like that lah! Is has
always been me who have to be understanding. Okay the list of people who make me mad!

#1. My own sister!
Huh!! This one is really getting on my nerves! It's not that i hate her or something. But she always makes me cry! Duhh...For heaven's sake...can she please stop making me cry? She makes me cry all the time!
Well the fact that...i reeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllllllllllllllllllyyyyyyyy love being ignored by her!! It rrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllllllllyyyyyyy makes me happy!! well fuck that shit! She just makes me mad? Why?? Because she have no time for me anymore. It may not be appropriate but I know all the reasons through she may not know that I know what's her reason. The fact that i just close my eyes and pretend all those were not real. Yeah i know she's busy! I am busy too...but I will always make time for her! Just spent my fucking hours to talk or texting her! Or sometimes..meet her!! But fine yeah whatever..she will never have time for me anymore! IDK...busy with friends..boyfriend or assignment!  i may not understand..but please MAKE me understand! Fine..life's a bitch and then you'll die! Probably that's what I am going through right now! I may not be an understanding sister that she've been hoping for! I was busy too last year..as it was my SPM...but I have always made time for her!! *Sigh!! Not trying to sound so dissapointed am I?

#2. My mother!
You must grow up! Don't be so immature! That's what she describe me...Always...why can't she accept me for who I am and not for what I am not! Seriously..by asking me to change is not a good idea! Who was the one who said i have no character? I have my own character! You expect me to change! You want me to be who i don't wanna be! Is that fair? why can you be nice to other people's daughter? Why can't you treat me as nice as you treat them? It has always been me who's wrong! It has always been me! Why can't you reflect yourself and ask where have you gone wrong? Is it fair for you to put the blame on me alone? Is it? I may not be your favorite child. It has always been my brothers right? No need to tell me...I know! Then why do you think I can't stay at home? why do you think i wanted to go out? Why?? If you treated me like your only daughter, then probably..i don't have to be what i am now!! A HEARTBREAKER! It's not entirely my fault! Mind that!

#3. Friends
Well...they are great! But...some of them are good for nothing! I have a series of unfortunate events with them..but i don't really love to post bout them...eherm!

#4. Somebody that I used to know
Name...SECRET!

Age..same age as me
Gender...Male
Reasons? I don't actually give a damn bout him untill last year. But I've wrote a post bout him..I am tired to write a post on him again!
















And because of the...i turnes out to be THHHHHHHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIISSS!!! I turned out to be a heartbreaker because i always get my heart broken by these 4 people! Why must you ruin everything? Have i did anything? k fine whatever! I am just as useless as any other things in the world! #GODIE! Bye!

TOODLES!

Domenique Melchior! And Zayn malik!

So...i just came across this magazine! Tetiba..i saw this YUMMYLICIOUS GOODLOOKING GUY!!!
Obviously he was topless! But who cares right?? He shall be my dream guy! Not expecting much! But he is soooooooo hot!! Making my ice cream melts too!! Don't believe me? This is his PIC!!

eherm nice right?? Not forgetting! He got six packs and a very muscular and a very tall guy!!! Ahhhh I Love You!!

Not forgetting..my sweetheart...ZAYN MALIK!!!

So there...all my sweethearts up there... Say hello to NUR RAIHAN'S BOYFRIEND..heee
Toodles!!