Go! leave me alone!

See.. i hope it's you who save me from the darkness spell

The tittle is a lil bit emotional. I know. But itulah yang aku rasa sekarang! After this, you'll leave me, and I know, it's the last time we'll see each other after. You said that, we can always see each other but, i don't think so...ntahlah... maybe kot. Whatever, still, you gonna leave me alone aren't you? And now, the reason I make you hate me! I hurt you is because I don't want you to feel heavy when you see me still standing here. I hurt you to make you stop missing me when I don't text you anymore. I don't feel like doing that but I have no choice! that's my reasons. But believe me! When you need me, I'll always be there for you. Remember our promise? well, I am keeping it, no matter what happen. Hate me if you want, but i'll always be there to be the shoulder you need when you cry and in need. Cause, you keep the promise you made to me, so, I am here to do the same for you! Spending time with you is the most bestest (aku tau takde ayat nie) thing that had ever happen in my life! But, hey, everyone have to go right? Well I am letting you go now. Go now before i hurt you more! You have my word! I won't and will never give up on you even if it's for the world! If you ask me the reason for leaving me before you leave me, the reason is, I don't want to cry when i see your tears. Please let me going before you. You're breaking and tearing me apart when I see you cry! (wait, a guy who cry is ugly,but if it's a girl, I think it's normal) One fine day, when I think I am strong enough to let you go, we'll definitely meet again! I promise!

I will never ever give up! forgiving!

Today's topic is kindda lame...But wait! It doesn't mean you shouldn't read what I write right?? Giving up is what people do when they are tired of their life. Worst of all, they kill themself for that! I dun need your reasons. How big your problem is, never ever give (Timah, ni khas untuk kau....hahahahah)Look at me...I may have my own set of problems, but hey, it doesn't stop me from smiling and be kind to others. Everyone in this world have problems. Don't run away from it! Face it and be proud when it's settle cause that shows you are strong enough to pull yourself up when you fall down! Don't be stupid enough to end your life okay... Well...hahaha...i just know how to talk but not that good in solving my problems... Cause it has always been my sister who settle it for me. I am not that strong, but wait, my spirit is high! I kindda help her to solve my problems. Hahahaha. But the key is to never give up! You give up you die. You die, your hopes die too! And when it does, you will be tired of your own life...I hate giving up! I'll do anything to win it. And most off all...I NEVER GIVE UP ON PEOPLE I LOVE AND CARED FOR! I am willing to even risk my life for them. Cause people like them never come twice in life. They are sent down from god to me to make me learn something in life...And i love it that way...One more thing, i wont let them go easily cause you have no idea how important your presents in my life to me! You teach me a lot! And i love for what you do for me. Having to be by my side when I am down. Pulling me out from the mess I did. Lending a shoulder to cry on..Accepting me the way I am and not hating me for who I am is the most important thing I find in someone who i trust. Also, someone who is embarrass of someone else is the most stupidest person on earth(my own opinion). As if you are fucking perfect is it?? Well...everyone has a negative side of them, and those who are ashamed of others, you are not that perfect either. so better kiss yourself goodbye!Therefore, when I trust you, don't betray it! Cause if you do, till your dying day, I will never ever forgive you...But...then, my sister thought me to forgive people...so, maybe i'll consider it okay...hahahah...K bye (nur raihan dah mula nak melalut)

The hahahaha Saturday...(i dunno what to put as the tittle)

Wah! It stated by my mum calling my name on top of her voice cause I don't want to wake up! Urgh! What a lazy morning! ==' Thank god my dad was not around or else he would combine with my mum and started to babble at the 3 of us! sigh*. I was about to ask my mum where the hell is my breakfast then I remembered I was fasting! oh man!...And guess what, my mum asked the 3 of us to clean our room cause it looks like a tornado just paid a visit! Hahahahaha...okay stop it! Oh then, we played computer while waiting for my dad to come home cause he's helping a guy to do aqiqah....at 2 something, my dad's relative came...and guess what, my dad arrived home shortly after that making me having a mini heart attack. I almost caught red handed cause I was playing the internet without his permission. Hohohoho....At that point, i dunno what to do, so, I slept my Saturday evening off. at 4, i woke up and watched tv. After all, the relatives are not there cause they when home ordy....then at 5, my friend said that she'll drop by to take the meat and I called my sister to pick her meat too cause I saved some for her. But then she said, she can't make it. But hey, after aishah came, I met my sister at the flat nearby. OMFG, my hair was like! shish!!UGLY!! But nvm, we took pictures and talk...and hugged and talk again...and snap pictures AGAIN!! Honestly, she is like my real sister,,,, Afterall, SHE IS MY SISTER! She even bought me presents. Hahahahaha... Love you kakak! K bye!!

My life on Friday at school!

Now...hmm....Friday, the most funniest and awesome day I had ever live in my life! Started from the day before that, which starts by calling my sister and talk to her for at least 40 minutes and 1 second. Hahahaha! Next day! On friday, it was a lousy morning cause i forgot to wrap my books and to tie it up nicely! So I woke up at 545 just to wrap that thing. Damn! I never feel so sleepy! But then, I got up, and stated piling my books and then iron my clothes. I wish I did that yesterday...=='.........ha....then had my bath and by 7, I am at school! Huh! Penat aja bawak telekung, tapi tak solat pun! grr...tau tak, aku nak solat?? cis!! Then, around 8 or 9, we were suppose to return all the textbook! Hohohoho...tulah sebabnyer tak sempat solat! Haaaa...pastu, around 9;45 br naek kelas, and we played uno card. Hahaha...I was the second to win. The first place is Dayana and I am second! hahahaha!!! Then during recess, I hmm wait for my sister to pick me up. Well i don't go recess with my friends anymore, not for now. Maybe 1 day i will be with them again.....huhuhu....oh yeah sambung balik. At canteen, i got to know that my sister is fasting, so I dragged her up to the highest and the farest building at school. And we started taking pictures....i thought nobody would pass that building, but omfg! the discipline teacher DID pass! i repeat, he PASSED that building, what else could i do, we both got up and flee to the next building..hahahaha sucks! things would be so much easier if the phone dissapear! hahahaha thank god, he did not realize us. He was too busy looking for kids who bunk class (like us) hahahahaha...Hmmmm...then, we walk back to my class building after doing the so-called-crime. And, out of no where, my add maths teacher plak muncul. Pucat lesi sey muka. Walawey! Baru tengah happy happy, dia dtang plak. Dah tu bley plak dia cakap "Raihan, markah semua ada kat Farhana, kalau ada apa apa, bagitau hari ini  jugak." hampeh sungguh! My sister said "Jangan nangis tau. Tahan dulu. Bagitau kakak nanti," amboi! Sesuka hati dier jer! Hahahaha..... malaslah nak citer pasal kertas tu! Janji lulus sudahlah! And anyway, balik tu, my girl-friends, were walking in groups. And Muna, my best buddy accompanied me to walk by the longer way. When I saw my sister, I called out to her and ask her to carry my books(What a crappy sister I am...sigh*) And, she call me over and she carried my books leaving Muna all alone. Walawey! Apa daaaa aku nie!! Sayang kakak!! Hohohoho...Okey sebelum aku melalut baik wa chow!! Bye!!

Great! Exam....FINISH!

Wow! Today is the most coolest day in my life. For 365 days in a year, I bet this is one of the

memorable day. I LOVE this day for so many reasons through what I hope for don't actually go well. Hahahaha...But who cares? As long as I spend my recess time bossing and sulking and babbling to my sister who apparently came and pick me up in class. She thought me agama, but most of our time laughing and screaming our head off! Hey wait up! It's not her, it's me! Hehehehe!! Hmm...what do I do haaaa? Oh yeah, I ate and oh my god! I forgot to mention that my tudung was like tooo big, I could actually hide a laptop underneath it! And honestly, when I bought my bread, I was like pondering around but my sister kept on holding my hand. She said in case I got lost. Here's the deal, I love pondering all over places. And the other week before that, she and her friend almost got a mini herat attack cause when they were buying their luch, I was walking behind the school canteen. I am a very curious type of person, so when I am with you, make sure to get hold of me cause I don't know where I'll walk to. Continuation of my story, huhuhu... a guy asked her whether she and I are sisters cause we look alike.  And she said, haah, dia adik akak. (I did not hear the conversation between my sister and that guy) and the next thing I know, she grabbed me and looks soooooooo happy and in my mind was like saying "Is my sister have mental problems? Looking happy and smiling out of the sudden"...hahahaha...when we were sitting I asked her and she told me all about it... what can I say is Oh! And the most coolest thing that happen is, the freaking EXAM IS FINISH!! I thought that they would never come! Haish! But wait, next year is my SPM! OH CRAP!!!!!!! I am about to leave school! NOOOOO!!! And no mummy and daddy sponsoring my stuff!!! AHAH..... continue next year! =='

Sms

I've been reading your messages over and over again without deleting it (even when you just typed K!) And I just don't whether to cry or laugh. Cry because, I don't wanna lose you and I miss you lots! And laugh because you're a humorist! You make me laugh even on my worst day! Oh god! anyway, you are sooo adorable! Love ya! Xoxo!

let's talk about L.O.V.E

What is love? Is it something that has to do with lust? Love, in life, you will love your parents, siblings, friends and most of all, your soul mate. May I ask, if you are still in school, and you have a boy or girlfriend, do you ever ever think it would last? Quit it! It won't last. Like me!

The first time I met him, My heart was like pounding so fast! I can't help staring at him all day in class. I was like, hmmm...he's the only guy I would wanna be. Like, learning to accept him the way he is. Love him. Care for him. I keep on asking his friends bout him. The way he acts. Haha... cranky I suppose. But that is what happen when you fell in love. You though he is your everyhing. And that time, his friends told me he like me too! And for all these years in school, I was exposed to the gossips that I soon got bored of it and move on with my life. Anyway, he does not even
make the first move, so how should I know if he really likes me! And this year, when I thought the gossip is gone, it came back! Why the hell am I always exposed to gossips? I don't understand,if I befriend with a guy, those gossips will start to appear. But when any other girls started befriending with the same guy or so whatever, they don't have to bear the cranky gossips! Why must it always be me?? Can't you MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS?? Now even the teachers get to know bout this and it drives me crazy! And guess what, I am NOT INTO HIM ANYMORE! Forget it. That is what I call puppy dog love!!

I told you, loving someone is not wrong, but not at this age. Loving your sisters or brothers are much more worth it cause, hey, they help you when you're in trouble right??

Don;t believe this when you are still schooling

According to you

According to you 
I'm stupid, 
I'm useless, 
I can't do anything right. 
According to you 
I'm difficult, 
hard to please, 
forever changing my mind. 
I'm a mess in a dress, 
can't show up on time, 
even if it would save my life. 
According to you. According to you. 

But according to him 
I'm beautiful, 
incredible, 
he can't get me out of his head. 
According to him 
I'm funny, 
irresistible, 
everything he ever wanted. 
Everything is opposite, 
I don't feel like stopping it, 
so baby tell me what I got to lose. 
He's into me for everything I'm not, 
according to you. 

According to you 
I'm boring, 
I'm moody, 
you can't take me any place. 
According to you 
I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away. 
I'm the girl with the worst attention span; 
you're the boy who puts up with that. 
According to you. According to you. 

But according to him 
I'm beautiful, 
incredible, 
he can't get me out of his head. 
According to him 
I'm funny, 
irresistible, 
everything he ever wanted. 
Everything is opposite, 
I don't feel like stopping it, 
so baby tell me what I got to lose. 
He's into me for everything I'm not, 
according to you. 

I need to feel appreciated, 
like I'm not hated. oh-- no--. 
Why can't you see me through his eyes? 
It's too bad you're making me decide. 

According to me 
you're stupid, 
you're useless, 
you can't do anything right. 
But according to him 
I'm beautiful, 
incredible, 
he can't get me out of his head. 
According to him 
I'm funny, 
irresistible, 
everything he ever wanted. 
Everything is opposite, 
I don't feel like stopping it, 
baby tell me what I got to lose. 
He's into me for everything I'm not, 
According to you. 
According to you. 

According to you 
I'm stupid, 
I'm useless, 
I can't do anything right. 

I know it's over, but hey, you are the type of guy who can't appreciate girls. One is never enough. Love is never enough. Goodbye jerk!

I need to undo my life. Find and correct my mistake. Finish all the things that I've started!

I really need to have an undo button in my life. It seems to me that i got lost in my own fantasy world. I wish I could return to the pass. Fix all my mistakes. Correct it all! I am stuck. I realise it now. And I hate my life now! I really need someone who can pull me out from this mess. But who can I depend on? Myself? Bah!!I am going ballistic if this goes on. Please-lah! I think, I really need a place for me to be alone, think all my pass mistakes. and find where I go wrong!

       Now that is what I meant! Oh yeah! Really! I need a place where I can spare my thought! I am going to die if this goes own! Let's start with...ermm... songs that I use to like. I bet, it can bring back all my fond memories, without throwing away the good memories I have NOW!






This is for sure... ----->

Bestfriends

Hmm... what is bestfriends??
Honestly, in life, there are two types of friends we have.
1 ) The real friends as in they are NOT FAKE!
2) A bunch of hypocrites or also known as weathered friends.

The real friends are the type that you can depend on! The one you can trust with your life. The one who cared for you. Even if they sometimes looks bitchy. But seriously, those are the types that you should go for! They sometimes act as your:

                                    *Therapist
                                    *Fashion advisor
                                    *Lesbian partner (Yikes)
                                    *You sister/siblings
                                    *Your mother (i mean like, when they starts babbling)
                                    *Enemy
                                    *Buddy
Man I am thankful cause god send me a bunch of good friends. I really can depend on them cause they never let me down. If they do, they apologise cause there are some dumb and a bunch sore ass losers who hates seeking for forgiveness! Hell yeah, as if you are the only one who is always right? Yeah, I guess better send these bunch of jerks straight to hell cause this types are dangerous. They might even back stab you. What a god forsaken bitches!
Now a best friend always do this:
              1. Save your ass from getting into trouble.
              2. Helps you in your homework (hahaahaha)
              3. Helps in creating creative excuses.
              4. Flunk their exams with you too!
See...how sweet!

 Nice right??
And BTW, don't throw your friends aside for a guy, cause, if the guy dump you, you have no friends, Think before you act!

The hypocrites and rah rah rah losers:

I hate this types. They think they're cool when they are not! They think they are worth being friends but hey bitches! You're not! They are backstabbers! Losers and good for nothing. This types can go straight to hell. But before that, why don't you guys drink a bottle of rat poison and then, drive your bloody car around, drink a bottle of beers and then, why don't you go die? I HATE BACK STABBERS! they are just not worth it! These are also the types when you are happy, they'll surround you and share your happiness! But when you are in trouble or when you are sad, they leave you alone. Let loneliness marry you!

SO CHOOSE WHICH ONE ARE YOU??

But anyway, I love all my girl-friends and my sisters

Muna Nadhira, NorFaizah, Zahrisma Fardila Pasa, Nur Amirah, Fatimah Zahra, Fatimatuz Zahra, Nabilah Jamal, Siti Balqis, Siti Aishah, Siti Zawani, Nur Farhana, Nur Afifah, Akmar Dahlia, Nur Sakinah, Fatin Nur Jeehan, Nur Dayana, Nurul Atikah, Farahnaz,NurHayyu, Intan Faradila,NorShafika, Shafiqa Atikah, Nur Hafizah and many more!
 LOVE YOU GUYS CAUSEYOU GUYS ARE NOT BACKSTABBERS!
(Exception for Nor Faizah and Zahrisma those are my sisters and sweethearts)

XoXo

Hee....kiddo

Just now I was watching Princess and the pauper. Hahaha... I know you guys will say, Euw... are you still a kid or what? Ahah! Thats where you go wrong. Seriously, it's funny and cool! Lol! And my elder brother said that "I've watched that when I was a kid?" Honestly, barbie's are not for girls only, okay! It's for guys too! And my favourite is Barbie in Rainbow secrets. Childish? Go ask my elder sister who is 17 yet she loves barbie. Blame her cause make me watch that kindda show. Huhuhuhuhu!!!~~, yeah right! I just love the happy ending cause the girl and the man of her dreams would look so compatible!! hahaha

see!I told you they are compatible...hahahaha

Let's talk about exam.( i hate talking about this)

Ok... What is E-X-A-M-I-N-A-T-I-O-N.....??\
It is where we write answers and we got it wrong.
Where we studied like hell! (Oh yeah baby oh yeah)
It's where our handphone won't ring
It's where our parents confiscate our phone
And my favourite, Its where we study last minute and dare to dream we can pass (nah! not really)
Seriously, my exam is add maths next week and god.... I bet I actually look like this fellow down here:

I bet this guy is dead...Oh he's actually banging his head on the table! See!

Ohohoh...And the worst part is my face will look ugly with a little bit of stress look and some pimple due t stress! OMG! And  also, the next day is physics paper 1 and 2. Oh Crap! see this ridiculous answer this kid give:

That's what I call easy zero baby! Easy score too!

 

Hahahaha...see the picture up there, that's just for fun cause I am going bonkers after studying add maths and physics. I don't see the point of a good and a relaxing holiday if I must keep on staring at the books with some papers on it.

This is what I look like! Going crazy mood!

 Here's the deal:

See...I hate it! It makes me go stress!! and I have to study until dawn! Without sleeping!
Hush!

Come on-lah when is this exam gonna end?? I wanna throw a party! Shish!

Bunk school if you hate it! that's my idea of survival! Honestly!
This kid down there, has nothing to do with exams but i just put him there cause he's a good and a cute kid. I'am proud of him! hahaha

Cute right??

Brandon Urie (Mr. Hot) and Lee Dong Wook (Mr. Happyface) VS Lee Min Ho (Mr. Macho)

Hahahaha...today, I would like to talk about STALKER baru... hehehe... See the name up there??
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>Brandon Urie
>Lee Dong Wook
>Lee Min Ho
  Now, today's entry is about the 3 guys that I've mention just now.

#Brandon Urie...

Poof! See...
this is the proof...even my vanilla and chocolate
ice cream starts to melts upon seeing him singing
Lalalalala~~~

Hmm he's handsome and have a little bit of a playboy looks doesn't he? I remember the first time I've seen him which is through a link which my friend Syadieya post it on Facebook. That time, the song is... wait...hurmmmm (processor going slow) ahah! I write sins not tragedies. He was wearing a cloak and Ohmygod, he's damn hot. I love seeing his evil smile. What's more, he have a nice lips.! Ehehehe... I mean, his voice is nice. That makes me melt. Even my ice cream melts after seeing him for the first time. Then, I started looking for him at Facebook! thank god I found him cause I almost died of adoration. (after Zain Saidin O.K). And he's best feature is his brown eyes. Nice one y'all! It looks cute on him...

#Lee Dong Wook

Ahah! One of my favourite Korean Artist...Hahaha(suara gatal) hehehe...he's hot and most of all, he charming. This time,my ice cream does not melts, but my heart does! I don't lie. He is sooooo gorgeous... let me spell it for you

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The proof baby! The PROOF...POOF!

 G-O-R-G-E-O-U-S! Say hello to Mr. Happyface. Not Happyfeet! Now seriously, I don't waiiiit. No, I am not sooo into Korean artist. But after watching him (Mr. Happyface) up there, acted, I actually thought, it was not that bad. As a matter of fact, he have the talent, the face, the style, so why not?? Eherm... ==' .... And seriously, he is a good looking guy and I love the way he looks (Love the way you lie song)...ahahahaha....    




And NOW.... MY Favourite......
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Look! It's Mr Macho guy! Clap clap clap!!

Look! Who just came to say HI :)

#Lee Min Ho

Now...about this guy. I was arguing with my beloved sister (my elder sister) bout him. 

Look up there
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How can you say he's not handsome at all! He do have some killing factors that girls run after him. See his lips, his nose, his skin?? Ahahaha! Now that is what I call! Features that may Kill YOU! Abou the arguing, I told my sister, there, Mr. Macho guy is my boyfriend...Hahahaha....OOPS! No! He's not my boyfriend,,,, he's my husband! Tadaaaa!! hahahah....And it pisses my sister off! I mean like, he's cute right? And in the drama he act, through he may looks so snobish, but hey, he's cool on the outside. I can't help but to watch every scene he act! And, I really love his act in B.O.F. But it also means I love seeing him and Kim Bum acted in that drama! Okay... say HI to both of them!
Look! they're smiling!







Hahahaha...okay, that's all.... maybe next time I'll post girls artist..Bet hey! You've gotta wait alright! :) Toodles! Xoxo