School holiday!

Hahahaha....
you guys semua sukakan holidaykan?? Sukalah korang...aku??
Hampeh!! bosan giler siaaa baik gi sekolah. At least dapat jugak tengok

mamat mamat hensem (^^,) jumper kawan dan jumper cikgu (aku tahu bahasa
aku agak poyo dan sesuai ditampar). Tapi serius tu lagi best dari duduk umah.
Tengok tv! Bosan tau tak!! Dahlah, duduk umah nie, macam duduk dalam
entahlah...tak ada ayat yang lebih sesuai! yang pasti aku memang bosan.
Dahlah aku nak lepak nagn kawan aku pun tak boleh! haiaya!! Hidup apakah ini??
Boleh giler campur sewel aku camnie... bukan tu ajer, mak aku soh aku keluar dengan
kawan adik aku bulan 12 nanti!! wahahahahaahahah apa dia fikir aku nie babysitter ke??
Aku pun ada hidup aku sendirilah!! Tahu tak??!!! Aku duduk dalam bilik, kena marah!
Keluar dari bilik, kena marah! Tidur awal kena marah. Tidur lambat pun kena marah!
What the hell mey?? Hello!! Can a teenager get a life here?? Tahun depan nak SPM,
bukan selalu nak seronok2 macam nie tahu tak?? Dah tu, cuti nie, ada ke patut aku kena pergi library
AJE!!And swimming.... okay it might be exciting if I am a kid!! Puh-lees lah!! I am not
a KID!! Dahlah!! aku malas nak tambah dosa sebab mengumpat jer!! K bye!!---

Thank you!

Thank you for everything.

Thank  you for hurting me.

Thank you for making me jealous.

Thank you very much.

You know what, I treasure you so much! But what do I do to deserve this kind of
suprise (as you call it). And when you told me about having my replacement you can

still laugh and treat it as a joke. I pretended to be so unhurt and be cool about it.
Yeah I am good at lying because I used to be a professional liar! A liar is good in hiding their t
feelings. And that is why, when people hurt them, they just don't care! How stupid of me!
But if you see my reaction after reading your sms that time, you would know how badly hurt
and damage I am deep inside. Until now, I question myself, why do I trust and love someone
like you when you don't even feel the same way as I do? Am I stupid? Am I dumb? Am I a
dumbwit? Am I foolish? Am I an idiot? Or is it you who never realise that I sacrifice so much just
to see you happy? I can't bear to see you cry. But why do you always make me cry? I never
wanna see you cry, and i feel so hurt when seeing your teardrops. If possible, I am dare
enough to take over your sadness just to see you smile and laugh for the rest of your life.
Yeah I am dumb enough to do that kindda scarification when you don't even bother.

I go out

in the rain just to see you and I am willing to get a scolding from my parents. 

I am brave enough to receive a slap from my parents when I hide the facts about me, 

going to study with you and come home late. I am willing to lose my phone and my parents 

trust just for you. And most of all, I am willing to lose my best friends, and my younger sister just to be by your side. And there you are saying, why should I do that.

Cause you are my elder one. Because of you, I lose them all. And because I am stupid 

enough that eventually one by one, everyone is leaving me. I cannot guarantee

 that you could be by my side forever.I can't believe that I am willing to lose them then losing you. 

But guess what, I never regret! You show me and open my eyes up to see the world

and never be afraid of it. And to be with you, I am willing to do anything. Isn't that enough?

How much more must I sacrifice for you? How much people must I lose in my life for you?

Do you know how many people have I hurt and fight with just for you?

I can't bear to let people curse or talk behind your back. I won't let people talk nasty things about you.

And honestly, till now, I have always wonder, why am I crying for you? Am I that dumb? I

gave you everything, but why must you waste everything? You make me lose everything I 

had in life. In fact, you even found my replacement who maybe to you, is far better than me. you told me 

bout my replacement as if its a joke. Yeah a joke. Probably all this while, I am a joker in your life.

Maybe, I am a joker who does not wanna leave your side and I am a bloody-fool who does not

want to see you hurt. Yeah, I should let you go. Maybe, now is the time for me to forget you.

For now, I am going away from your life! That's the best I guess for you and me now probably.

But when you need me, I promise to be there, but then, I cannot promise to be by your side all the time

cause you hurt me enough to make me cry in my sleep. Just promise me that you won't forget my name

as someone who used to be someone important in your life. Promise me too that you will take 

good care of yourself while I am away. 

   Kalau ada jodoh,

kita akan bertemu 

kembali...

But if I am not back, be sure that I have always care for you. For now, I am leaving you in the care

of my prayers which I pray to god to always protect and keep you safe as my replacement.

Believe me! Goodbye is the only word for now. Don't be afraid to face the world. Enjoy it

till the last of your breath. May my sorrows be your happiness. The next thing you know,

I am by your side just to accompany or help you go through life. I'll be standing right next to you. 

When it rains...remember me!

Look at the window now. Tell me whether it rains. If it does, remember what we used to do
before I go from your life. You know how afraid i was when it rains and lightning strikes.
You hold my hand and said that everythings gonna be okay. Yeah i remember it till now.
Now, I am going through my life without anybody. Yeah Im leaving you the way you leave me!
you got sooo many people cared for you so maybe, it's easier for you to fnd my replacement!
I feel so foolish right now. Don't make it worst by showing the pictures when I am not with
you. And I AM NOT JEALOUS!!


Yeah maybe you should leave me alone. So now I am back to my old life.

maybe  I used to live in the dark sang by sleeq is for me!

Things that makes you hurt!

So....let me just say that these are the stuff that hurts me and most people a lot!

#1. You like someone, but your friend likes the same person too.

Hmm...man, this is hard. I felt like the world is coming to an end.

Why must you like the same person huh? (I am asking to my friend)

To make matter worse, they actually made the first move and well,
 they got the guy/girl of your dreams. It hurts, I know!

#2. You are friends with your crush, and when his/her friends ask him/her about the
both of you, they say "Nah, he/she is my friend."

What? Who am I to you? A friend? Not more than that when you actually know that
I like you? You know it! But you pretend not to know.

Do you know it hurts seeing you trying to ignore my feeings that i have for you?

And until now, I don't know

why, am I in love with an idiot like you in the first place. To make things worse,

you go out with another guy/girl and you told me how great they were.

Not knowing or prtend not to know the feelings I have for you!

#3. When you were talking, everybody ignored you just because you're not

that freaking popular!

Now... this really pisses me off! Like if you are one of those "hot wannabes".

When i mean hot, i really mean are you hot?

Oh come on, geeks have the rights to voice out their opinions.

Not only you. They have their own thoughts okay!

So f you really hate geeks, shut the fuck up!

You're not perfect and guess what, you're not that hot or popular okay! It's killing me

the way you act like a bunch of hot people when you're not!

(I am just saying for those geeks out there. No hard feelings okay)

#4. When your friends embarassed you in public or infront of you crush.

Now this is totally crappy! Best friends were suppose to be the one

who save your unlucky ass to go through your so lame life don't they?

Eherm...excuse me, it sucks when the person you depend on kills you!

I mean like backstab you or something..hahaha...
Thank god, my friends are the type who save me through out my day.
When I say friends, I also mean my sisters. Honestly, I really love

getting myself into troble. Suprsise in stores. Bahahaha....

#5. The time when you wear wrong clothes and people makes fun of you.

Ahahaha...this always happen to me. But when people make fun of me.
I am dangerous for you to be around. Not that i choose to be that way.
But honestly, you are asking for a grave yaw!
It's not my intention, but when you are looking trouble with me,
I tend to be dangerous. You may go to hell loser!

#6. The time when people make fun of your loved ones.

Hah! My foot is on your face when you say something about the people
I love and I care most. What the hell?? Are you trying to look for trouble?
Hey! Here's the deal. You may talk about anything else in the world, but shut your
freaking mouth when it comes to the people I love and cared most.
I won't tolerate any type of insult when you talk bout my fam,sisters,brothers,friends.
How do you feel when people do the same freaking thing to you to?
Mad right? Then stop doing things like that! You're asking for trouble you know.

#7. When your crush ask who do you like.

Mak aih!! Melayang jiwa. It was like the biggest and the hardest slap that I

got. Uhuh...freak and irritating nightmare. I would shout my head off if that happens!

Malu tau tak!! I feel like hanging myself if that happens.

#8. Acted stupidly infront of your boyfriend/girlfriend.

Haiyo! Ni kes parah! This one is a killing factor! WTF!

I would feel like putting or burrying my head deep inside the dustbin.

Or bang my head for acting stupidly! Shish!

Kill me in ma sleep. Out of my mind if that happens to me ley!!

The new Justin Bieber and I am proud of him. The new STAR

He is 14.
He is cute.
His face is friendly.
His voice is nice.
He is adorable. (you can't deny that)
The most warmest smile I ever seen.

I AM PROUD OF THIS FELLOW!! WHO IS HE?

HE IS GREYSON CHANCE! (clap clap clap)

Yeah you read that right. I mean like, he IS the NEW Justin Bieber.
Even if to you, he is just a kid, but hey, he have fans all over the world.

muke budak baik... I like!!

I could even wear a shirt saying that "GREYSON IS MY NEW SWEETHEART"
Knock knock, the bestest part is that,

HE IS BETTER THAN JUSTIN BIEBER
*Sorry JB's fan, I just can't stop myself.

And anyway, Greyson is cuter than JB...seriously.
Look, his songs are far better like UNFRIEND YOU. It's cool you know.
And the way he acted in that video, is like so cool I wish I could do that to my ex.
I mean like ruin his ex house with toilet rolls. I love that!
And, wow! He can play video? He's is awesome.
He's x factor is so good I can't resist it.
Oh yeah, forgot to mention.
He was in KL and he took pictures with Najwa Latif.
Hell yeah. They look cute LOL!
And seriously, that kid really love to smile.
Uh huh...so if you hate him, get lost!

The new star is Elle Fanning.
Muahahahaha...

She's 13.
She got nice eyes.
She is the younger sister of Dakota.
She is so beautiful.
She has many fans.
She is the new fashion icon (I am  deadly serious!)


Ahah! This girl is the new fashion icon cause seriously, 

She looks like her sister a bit!

I never seen her becoming the fashion victim of cruelty (yes hunny! Yes!)
Hahaha.... but anyway, she's hotter than me (hahahaha...perasan giler aku nie)
Even if she's 13, hello, she can still be popular like her sister.
That show's KIDS ROCK!


Showing this examples, I hope those hot people out there, follow their footsteps.
I am serious. But if you're not hot. Forget it. Cause you won't be one.
Nah I am just joking. Well just kidding!
I am just trying to save you from being humiliated. That's all...Hahahah...K bye!

lepas geram

Topic agak poyo...aku tahu...tak payah nak ingatkan aku =='

Aku tau kau pinjam ayat si madonna nie

Hmm like this, 

*Adik aku punyer citer

I kindda dislike (word aku agak sopan yer) this girl at school.

Bajet bagus gitu sey. Honestly, I have nothing against her untill she starts to interfere 

my persuit of happiness. At first, I did not realise her evil scheme. 

As a matter of fact, I willingly (without any interference from my mates maa) 

welcome her to go recess with us.

Oh shit! That's the biggest and the most foolish mistake I ever did. 

Stupid me! And guess what, after 7 months, I eventually get to know that she

 planned to get rid of me! What the hell?? I am

being nice and here you are, trying to kick me out. Who are you kidding? 

Not only that, she even made a plan to become my sister new sister. 

Oh come on-lah. Is it not enough? Kicking me out is bad 

enough, now you're planning to get my sister's attention? 

Go hang yourself before you dare to do that!

You are nobody you jerk!

*Hmm....then senyap agak lama...Minah nie giler yang amat!!~~

*Kakak aku punyer cerita

Hah...11.11.11...

I'am in a perfect good mood. And a perfect good life I was having. 

And the life smasher ruin my life in 30 minutes. 

What the hell?? You ruin my life for seven month and you are trying to ruin it again??

Get a life bitch! Well what she did is completely making my temper rise up to 39 degree!

She blamed my sister cause she got scolded by the teacher.

When I say scolded it means 'A GREAT TALK'... serves you right.

(I am talking bout my elder sister)

Kau nie, memang tak sedar diri ke apa... Dahlah emo jer... I hate you tau tak!!

stop smashing people's hope and life. 

Ruin your life is better than poking into my business you S***....

I hate cursing and swering you, but, you made me do it. Bye!

1 sad story that I made it up!

Tak de kaitan dengan yang hidup mahupun yang sudah meninggal dunia. Kalau ada pun, tu cuma kebetulan sebab ni imaginasi akulah!!!

 A girl, named, hmm lets call her N discovered she has brain tumor. She has frequent migrane and out of curiosity, she when to see the doctor after she fainting frequently. Even pills won't help her. Now, N is close to someone, lets call her FP aka ZTP...hahaha...eah cop ni bukan citer kelakar! Then, after she knows that she is having tumor, she never tell anybody and she keeps pretending nothing happened! She goes to school and have fun. But some of her friends know it from the teachers. They keep on persuading her to go for the operation. Then, FPgot her results and she was hoping to continue her studies in Ireland. Too bad, she don't receive any scholarship. When all her friends are going to foreign countries to further studies, she just stay at home. But hey, both N and FP are smart! FP got 10a's yaw! and N is having her SPM that year, she is also the apple in the eye of her school. Yeah too bad she is having that tumor. Wait, even the hottest guy named K can't persuade N to go for the operation. One day, FP when to the school to ask for scholarship. And at that time, she bumped into N who was walking with her face down, but as soon as she saw FP, she gave her an envelope and ask her to take care and she walked away without turning back. Cause she knows that if she turns back, she would cry and its also because she wants to hide her bleeding nose. FP was like speechless when she saw N goes away. Not long after that, N's friend came running to FP like a maniac. They ask her where is N. Even K is there to ask FP where is N. All of them ran towards the gate and tries to look for N, too bad, she is no where to be seen. Then FP ask N's bestest and considered as N's sister named hmm... E what the hell just happen! she told that n is having health problems but she does not want to tell her what is her problem. But after being persuaded, E told FP about the tumor thingy and the next thing you know, she ran after N. She found her and by the time she saw N, N's nose started to bleed.And she is also coughing up blood. The last words that N say is use it well and always remember her. After a month after her death,  she open the envelop that N gave her. inside, there's a piece of paper and a cheque written with N's handwriting. The cheque is wrote for FP. isk isk isk....inside the paper wrote this:

DEAR FP, 

I know that you really need the money to further your studies. I may need this money, but,

I don't have any chance to live longer. i know that you know about my tumor. You may ask me 

why I don't tell you my problem. Let me list it all down for you so that it is clear for you:

1. I don't want you to be sad.                      

2. I know it would be hard for you to accept the fact.

3. I don't want you and K to be upset. I know that K loves you more than he loves me. I am giving you chances to be with him. And love him for me can you?

That is my reasons.  But please, use the money that was suppose to be for my operation to go after

your ambition. Make people proud of ya. 

After a few years, she left her hometown, she went to Ireland and got married to K. She came back after 10 years and when to N's grave with her husband and kids after she is successful. She became the most successful brain tumor specialist. "N, FP dah balik"

YANG PASTI, NI xADA KAITAN DENGAN AKU WAHAHAHAHAHA....SEBAB AKU TENGAH BERKHAYAL!!!

Go! leave me alone!

See.. i hope it's you who save me from the darkness spell

The tittle is a lil bit emotional. I know. But itulah yang aku rasa sekarang! After this, you'll leave me, and I know, it's the last time we'll see each other after. You said that, we can always see each other but, i don't think so...ntahlah... maybe kot. Whatever, still, you gonna leave me alone aren't you? And now, the reason I make you hate me! I hurt you is because I don't want you to feel heavy when you see me still standing here. I hurt you to make you stop missing me when I don't text you anymore. I don't feel like doing that but I have no choice! that's my reasons. But believe me! When you need me, I'll always be there for you. Remember our promise? well, I am keeping it, no matter what happen. Hate me if you want, but i'll always be there to be the shoulder you need when you cry and in need. Cause, you keep the promise you made to me, so, I am here to do the same for you! Spending time with you is the most bestest (aku tau takde ayat nie) thing that had ever happen in my life! But, hey, everyone have to go right? Well I am letting you go now. Go now before i hurt you more! You have my word! I won't and will never give up on you even if it's for the world! If you ask me the reason for leaving me before you leave me, the reason is, I don't want to cry when i see your tears. Please let me going before you. You're breaking and tearing me apart when I see you cry! (wait, a guy who cry is ugly,but if it's a girl, I think it's normal) One fine day, when I think I am strong enough to let you go, we'll definitely meet again! I promise!

I will never ever give up! forgiving!

Today's topic is kindda lame...But wait! It doesn't mean you shouldn't read what I write right?? Giving up is what people do when they are tired of their life. Worst of all, they kill themself for that! I dun need your reasons. How big your problem is, never ever give (Timah, ni khas untuk kau....hahahahah)Look at me...I may have my own set of problems, but hey, it doesn't stop me from smiling and be kind to others. Everyone in this world have problems. Don't run away from it! Face it and be proud when it's settle cause that shows you are strong enough to pull yourself up when you fall down! Don't be stupid enough to end your life okay... Well...hahaha...i just know how to talk but not that good in solving my problems... Cause it has always been my sister who settle it for me. I am not that strong, but wait, my spirit is high! I kindda help her to solve my problems. Hahahaha. But the key is to never give up! You give up you die. You die, your hopes die too! And when it does, you will be tired of your own life...I hate giving up! I'll do anything to win it. And most off all...I NEVER GIVE UP ON PEOPLE I LOVE AND CARED FOR! I am willing to even risk my life for them. Cause people like them never come twice in life. They are sent down from god to me to make me learn something in life...And i love it that way...One more thing, i wont let them go easily cause you have no idea how important your presents in my life to me! You teach me a lot! And i love for what you do for me. Having to be by my side when I am down. Pulling me out from the mess I did. Lending a shoulder to cry on..Accepting me the way I am and not hating me for who I am is the most important thing I find in someone who i trust. Also, someone who is embarrass of someone else is the most stupidest person on earth(my own opinion). As if you are fucking perfect is it?? Well...everyone has a negative side of them, and those who are ashamed of others, you are not that perfect either. so better kiss yourself goodbye!Therefore, when I trust you, don't betray it! Cause if you do, till your dying day, I will never ever forgive you...But...then, my sister thought me to forgive people...so, maybe i'll consider it okay...hahahah...K bye (nur raihan dah mula nak melalut)

The hahahaha Saturday...(i dunno what to put as the tittle)

Wah! It stated by my mum calling my name on top of her voice cause I don't want to wake up! Urgh! What a lazy morning! ==' Thank god my dad was not around or else he would combine with my mum and started to babble at the 3 of us! sigh*. I was about to ask my mum where the hell is my breakfast then I remembered I was fasting! oh man!...And guess what, my mum asked the 3 of us to clean our room cause it looks like a tornado just paid a visit! Hahahahaha...okay stop it! Oh then, we played computer while waiting for my dad to come home cause he's helping a guy to do aqiqah....at 2 something, my dad's relative came...and guess what, my dad arrived home shortly after that making me having a mini heart attack. I almost caught red handed cause I was playing the internet without his permission. Hohohoho....At that point, i dunno what to do, so, I slept my Saturday evening off. at 4, i woke up and watched tv. After all, the relatives are not there cause they when home ordy....then at 5, my friend said that she'll drop by to take the meat and I called my sister to pick her meat too cause I saved some for her. But then she said, she can't make it. But hey, after aishah came, I met my sister at the flat nearby. OMFG, my hair was like! shish!!UGLY!! But nvm, we took pictures and talk...and hugged and talk again...and snap pictures AGAIN!! Honestly, she is like my real sister,,,, Afterall, SHE IS MY SISTER! She even bought me presents. Hahahahaha... Love you kakak! K bye!!

My life on Friday at school!

Now...hmm....Friday, the most funniest and awesome day I had ever live in my life! Started from the day before that, which starts by calling my sister and talk to her for at least 40 minutes and 1 second. Hahahaha! Next day! On friday, it was a lousy morning cause i forgot to wrap my books and to tie it up nicely! So I woke up at 545 just to wrap that thing. Damn! I never feel so sleepy! But then, I got up, and stated piling my books and then iron my clothes. I wish I did that yesterday...=='.........ha....then had my bath and by 7, I am at school! Huh! Penat aja bawak telekung, tapi tak solat pun! grr...tau tak, aku nak solat?? cis!! Then, around 8 or 9, we were suppose to return all the textbook! Hohohoho...tulah sebabnyer tak sempat solat! Haaaa...pastu, around 9;45 br naek kelas, and we played uno card. Hahaha...I was the second to win. The first place is Dayana and I am second! hahahaha!!! Then during recess, I hmm wait for my sister to pick me up. Well i don't go recess with my friends anymore, not for now. Maybe 1 day i will be with them again.....huhuhu....oh yeah sambung balik. At canteen, i got to know that my sister is fasting, so I dragged her up to the highest and the farest building at school. And we started taking pictures....i thought nobody would pass that building, but omfg! the discipline teacher DID pass! i repeat, he PASSED that building, what else could i do, we both got up and flee to the next building..hahahaha sucks! things would be so much easier if the phone dissapear! hahahaha thank god, he did not realize us. He was too busy looking for kids who bunk class (like us) hahahahaha...Hmmmm...then, we walk back to my class building after doing the so-called-crime. And, out of no where, my add maths teacher plak muncul. Pucat lesi sey muka. Walawey! Baru tengah happy happy, dia dtang plak. Dah tu bley plak dia cakap "Raihan, markah semua ada kat Farhana, kalau ada apa apa, bagitau hari ini  jugak." hampeh sungguh! My sister said "Jangan nangis tau. Tahan dulu. Bagitau kakak nanti," amboi! Sesuka hati dier jer! Hahahaha..... malaslah nak citer pasal kertas tu! Janji lulus sudahlah! And anyway, balik tu, my girl-friends, were walking in groups. And Muna, my best buddy accompanied me to walk by the longer way. When I saw my sister, I called out to her and ask her to carry my books(What a crappy sister I am...sigh*) And, she call me over and she carried my books leaving Muna all alone. Walawey! Apa daaaa aku nie!! Sayang kakak!! Hohohoho...Okey sebelum aku melalut baik wa chow!! Bye!!

Great! Exam....FINISH!

Wow! Today is the most coolest day in my life. For 365 days in a year, I bet this is one of the

memorable day. I LOVE this day for so many reasons through what I hope for don't actually go well. Hahahaha...But who cares? As long as I spend my recess time bossing and sulking and babbling to my sister who apparently came and pick me up in class. She thought me agama, but most of our time laughing and screaming our head off! Hey wait up! It's not her, it's me! Hehehehe!! Hmm...what do I do haaaa? Oh yeah, I ate and oh my god! I forgot to mention that my tudung was like tooo big, I could actually hide a laptop underneath it! And honestly, when I bought my bread, I was like pondering around but my sister kept on holding my hand. She said in case I got lost. Here's the deal, I love pondering all over places. And the other week before that, she and her friend almost got a mini herat attack cause when they were buying their luch, I was walking behind the school canteen. I am a very curious type of person, so when I am with you, make sure to get hold of me cause I don't know where I'll walk to. Continuation of my story, huhuhu... a guy asked her whether she and I are sisters cause we look alike.  And she said, haah, dia adik akak. (I did not hear the conversation between my sister and that guy) and the next thing I know, she grabbed me and looks soooooooo happy and in my mind was like saying "Is my sister have mental problems? Looking happy and smiling out of the sudden"...hahahaha...when we were sitting I asked her and she told me all about it... what can I say is Oh! And the most coolest thing that happen is, the freaking EXAM IS FINISH!! I thought that they would never come! Haish! But wait, next year is my SPM! OH CRAP!!!!!!! I am about to leave school! NOOOOO!!! And no mummy and daddy sponsoring my stuff!!! AHAH..... continue next year! =='

Sms

I've been reading your messages over and over again without deleting it (even when you just typed K!) And I just don't whether to cry or laugh. Cry because, I don't wanna lose you and I miss you lots! And laugh because you're a humorist! You make me laugh even on my worst day! Oh god! anyway, you are sooo adorable! Love ya! Xoxo!