Cuti Tahun Baru Cina lah wey...

Hello!! *ngantuk lagi ni...hahahah...ok sepanjang cuti ni...i did the most nerdy job of all..which is studying and doing my homeworks....*kau buatlah sangat...macam real jer..hahaha...neh...i was joking...i was busy playing sims *wei kau spm tahun ni kau sedar tak?? kalau kau nak azankan aku...lupekan jerlah...aku taulah aku exam...tapi aku nak enoy life..takkan tak bley??? woah...but ary isnin tu bestlah...sbb ade org ckp aku lawa...hahahaha...poyo jer....sebab waktu tu tgh nk mkn kat singgah selalu...korang pnah pergi??? tak pernah kan???so buat tak tau sudah..kalau tau pun...buat bodoh jerlah...sebab ni cerita aku....hahaha...hmm on tuesday...aku maen xbox..takdelah best sgt...cume aku geram tgk adik aku main mcm tak ingat dunia...giler sey dier...hahaha..on wednesday...satu hari aku menghadap muka kakak aku yg kononnyer makin tembam..*ye ke???hahaha watevlah..ok aku malas nk type ni..so kbai...nak berhibernasi...

come on come on

ok so here i am sitting in my room doing something practically dumb... but hey i m bored to death can die wo...
oh yeah so what im gonna update is that..on saturday i when to angsana...hahaha...it was like hmm ok...quite fun through...ok at first i was mumbling to myself what the hell am i doing there? it all started when my sister asked me to join her and her friends. technically i really don't know what she's up to. but i just agree anyway cause hey i miss her a lot! it has been 3 weeks since i last see her. not including messages and chattings, and so...that saturday which is 31 december 2011 (perfect timing for countdown right? yeah i know!) hahaha.... her friend which i called her kak Fathira (amboi...sopan nyah!) said i should meet her at her house y 11:55 am.. hmm i said ok. then out of nowhere my dad offered to send me...rezeki jangan ditolak..what's more im wearing the freaking short skirt i got last year...muahahaha...sexy? neh...but in the car on the way through, my sister keep on poking and kindda like pulling my skirt up. hahahaha...that is forgiveble (or not!) ..i really can't believe i can keep my big mouth shut! usually i talked all the way, but huh...i survived by not muttering even a word for maybe 45 minutes (malu oouh)..hahaha...ok upon arriving...we when first is to the...................................................................TOILET!! to....check out my hair...hahaha....i wasted my sister's money for that? hahaha...come on! that is my piority...20 cent only meh....hahaha..ok then we go shopping..not me! only kak fathira and kak amalina? (is that the way to spell her name? ==') ok maybe..they bought high heels only...while they're at that, my sister and i bought the most nicest, moistest most ok..cut that crap! we bought vanilla ice cream which apparently is OUR favourite flavored ice cream! hmm then we walked in circles going up down left right all over the place...hmm but we keep on getting seperated all the time. thank god..what? oh yeah..my sister keep on grabbing my hand in case i got lost! WHAT!! am i a kid? well apparently i am...to her! but overall it is fun!!we ate at mcdonald (once again) muahahaha....and kononnyer romanticlah sangat when i was shoving the fries in my sister's mouth cause she really talked a lot! like OH WOW!! she really LOVES to talk...so i just shove that fries in to her mouth to stop her from talking a lot!! ok then oh wait..my sister dragged me to the game store..oh come on!! she really loves playing game too? well im not that addicted to games as she is...hmm like around 5:30 kak fathira's dad picked us up and we were sent back home...the end...


oh not yet...we continued sms-ing till 12...count down baby...oh yeah!! it's near year!! and i fell asleep...too tired...ok..im done..this is the real end...

KBAI!!

2011: Do you know someday!

Haiz... it's December...and let me sing back to december for MR.M when he ask me
whether I would like to be his sweetheart (cewah! Ayat...romantic giler) but back to December
jugaklah aku jadi solo milo. Hmm 2011, what have I done? I really hate this year.
But oops! I can't! Hee You know why, because, all the memories that I've been through
is unforgettable. Like when I actually kenal @ get to know my beloved sister yang teramatlah cute.
If she is beside me I bet she'll say "Raihan! Jangan nak bodek lebey eah. Raihan lagi cute" and
I would say "EE mana ade" and the story will like forever perasan memasan and puji memuji.
And this year, I kindda change a lot! A snobbish, self centred and a vain girl actually turn out to be
a mature girl. Hahahaha! Kidding! Neh I was just joking my head off! Hahahahaha....But still,
my hot head, naughty and yeah well I am little bit aggressive and erm egoistic attitude is still the same.
Wawawa....well that really pissed my mum and dad off cause when i don't get what I want, I'll sulk and
then, black mailing. but before that, I cried first! hahahaha! come on, I was a little bit emotional!
"Raihan...straight to the point can you?" "Okay, yeah sure!" Heee whatever it is, I am gonna change that
attitude and be more mature and confident of myself! What's more, I have to be independent and be
strong when my sister is not in that school anymore! Oh come on! How bad could it be?
Yeah! Very bad cause she's not by my side and her protective shield is not there to protect me!
Hahaha! But soon it will pass! Or maybe I will be running back and cry back on her lap! Well
that's just a back up plan. Maybe I'll use it! Whatever! Yang pasti SPM is the most important thing! I
want to score 9A's! Insya'allah! Doakanlah kalau baik hati yer!!

Aku harap angan angan aku ni jadi kenyataan dan harapnya kakak aku pun dapat keputusan yang cemerlang, terbilang dan gemilang! Amen!

1.Bahasa melayu        A
2.English                    A
3.Chemistry               A
4.Pysics                     A
5.LK                         A
6.Add maths              A
7.Mathematics           A
8.Agama                   A tapi kalau dapat B aku terima dengan hati yang terbuka.
9.History                   A

Subjek fav aku mestilah maths! and sejarah and English! Dan aku harap subjek tu tak kecewakan aku!

                          

 I will never quit! Because I am not a quiter! 

A quiter always quit! And I believe that I can do it!

Challenge is something that I will go for!

And if I am not satisfied, I will never stop at that!

Reaching for the highest stars means, reaching for the maximum!

Nothing is impossible! Believing in yourself! Is what my daddy says! i'll hold to it!

                                     

I am gone

kalau tengah emo baru bace yer nanti tak ada feeling....

Sorry that I have to leave you now. You hurt me enough. For now, you are in the care of my prayers. I am never mad or frustrated for all those things that happened. The fight. The quarrel. The crying and the tears. Sorry that I have to forget you. That is not my actual intention. But you made me. I am sorry for making you disappointed with my actions. I hope you would forgive me before I go from your life. Let me through my life alone. Without your shadows protecting me. Without your protective shield that keeps me away from danger. But most of all, without you who always help when I got myself into a huge mess. Also i want to learn to be independent. I don't want your help. I don't want your guidance. I don't want your sympathy. also, I want to learn to be independent. I want to face it alone. I may need you, but I won't! I hate to admit that I can't live without you! I hate to think that I can't continue life without you. I hate to admit that i am lousy without you. I hate to think that I am so un-independent of you. I hate myself  for loving you. For now, I keep on saying that I am going to start back at zero. Without you! I promised myself not to cry when you go. But even a liar like me can't lie to my own feelings. You come into my life when I feel that I have no hopes. You save me from my own thoughts. Now you are part of my life and I can’t ignore you neither can I forget you. Memories that we shared is very precious. But now is the time for me to let you go. When you have to leave me, please let me go easily from your life. Don't tie me down. If you love someone else so much, then, go! Ignore me now. Let it hurts now than never. You come so fast and easy. But when you go, why must it be difficult and slow? You're mysterious and it's hard for me to read you! You come and go! when you need me, I am always by your side. But then you throw me away. You know that I can't let go off the memories.

It's not that I don't love you,

I just don't want to hurt you. I can't let go off the good times we shared together.

I hate to be cold, but i have to let you go.

You are self-centred. You destroy all my dreams, hope and love. But know want thing. I still love you all my heart. Even when it hurts and I don't have the heart but I am sincere enough to let you go. Because I am just a human being that makes many mistakes in life. And you are one of the mistakes that I never regret. Nothing's easy and I hope you understand it. the memories can't be compared. I know it will take a while. Understand that it's not that don't love you. I just don't want to hurt you anymore. Till then, we will meet again, and I hope that time, I am strong enough to face you! Bye


Sesaat kau Datang English version

Lirik Lagu Sesaat Kau Datang -Ramlah Ram ft SleeQ

Verse 1

Sesaat Kau Datang……..

Sesaat Kau Hilang………

Kemunculan dirimu…..

Penuh misteri………..

Verse 2

Kau Mendekat…

Kau Menjauh….

Kau tinggalkan diriku…

Sesudahnya kau membuang

Mencampakkan aku……….

Verse 3

(Alif)

Its not that i dont love you

I just dont want to hurt you

I cant let go of all the good times we share together

(Syarif)

I hate to be cold but i got to let you go

Chorus:

Sungguh kejamnya dirimu….

Mengkhianati cinta yang ku semat di jiwa

Kau hancurkan segala harapan…

Kau remukkan cinta yang telah kita bina…..

Ha….Ha…..Ha…Ha.…Ha…..Ha…

Jika sudah kau mencintai dia

Putuskan aku dengan baik caranya

Walaupun sakit hati ku rasa

Sesungguhnya aku tak rela……..

Kerna hatiku masih mencintai

Dirimu dengan sepenuh hati…

Tapi ku ikhlas melepaskanmu…

Karena aku manusia biasa…..

Verse 4

(Alif and Syarif)

Nothings easy girl

Nothings easy girl

Aint nothings easy i hope you understand me girl

Nothings easy girl

Aint nothing in this world

Could ever compare to what we had

Whats gone

Repeat Chorus:

Sungguh kejamnya dirimu….

Mengkhianati cinta yang ku semat dijiwa..

Kau hancurkan segala harapan…

Kau remukkan cinta yang telah kita bina…..

Ha..Ha..Ha..Ha..Ha..Ha..Ha..Ha..

Jika sudah kau mencintai dia

Putuskan aku dengan baik caranya

Walaupun sakit hati ku rasa

Sesungguhnya aku tak rela……..

Jika sudah kau mencintai dia

Putuskan aku dengan baik caranya

Walaupun sakit hati ku rasa

Sesungguhnya aku tak rela……..

Jika sudah kau mencintai dia

Putuskan aku dengan baik caranya

Walaupun sakit hati ku rasa

Sesungguhnya aku tak rela……..

Kerna hatiku masih mencintai

Dirimu dengan sepenuh hati…

Tapi ku ikhlas melepaskanmu…

Karena aku manusia biasa…..

Verse 5

Tiada salahku kepada dirimu

Kau buatku sengsara

Kau buat kecewa

Ku Harap ada karma

Yang datang kepadamu……kepadamu

Zayn Malik vs Tom Parker

Hmmm Zayn Malik. Have you heard of him? If no...hmm let me talk bout him
He is the most handsome kid on earth. When I say kid, I mean teenager.
He's hot and I melt for him! Hahahaha....Ok..here is more about him

Name: Zayn Malik

Age: 17

Birthday: 12th January 1993 

Hobbies: singing ofcourse
Favourite Animal: LION
From: England, Bradford

Religous Views: Muslim,

Mixed Race: Half Pakistani & Half English

Currently: Is in a band called'1Direction' they were formed at the XFactor -with four other boys: Louis Tomlinson, Liam Payne, Harry Styles, and Niall Horan. They made it to the finals and came third place...Now where waiting for the album to comee out.

Ehemr....he is HOT!!

Tom Parker


Age: 21

Date Of Birth: 04/08/1988

Hometown: Bolton

Star Sign: Leo

Favourite Food: Indian, Italian

Height: 5ft 10

Eye Colour: Hazel

Hair Colour: Brown

Favourite Band: Oasis

Football Team: Bolton Wanderers

Favourite Animal: Parrot

Favourite TV Show as a kid: Rosie and Jim

Recent TV Show: The Inbetweeners

Favourite Trainers: Reebok

Status: Single

Dream Woman: Kate Thornton

Random Fact: He’s the tidiest member of Wanted



Likes & Dislikes

•I like it when… i’m writing music and playing my guitar.

•If I could rule… the country, i would make tax zero.

•If it was the end… of the world, i would hide in a bunker.

•If my name was… Liam Gallagher, i would be cool.

•If I was a girl… i would go into the girls toilets and find out what they actually talk about when they go in there in 2s,3s,9s.

•If I could have… just one day with John Lennon.

•I hate it when… i’m bored.

So there it is! Ok...he's awesome...if you hate them, then shut up and keep the thoughts to yourself so I am not forced to vomit on you losers! Adios amigos! Teehee :)

what happen today....

hmmm today, i did not do anything interesting except for swimming and hmmm going to the
library hahaha i told you that i am a bookworm....So tak payah nak gelak sanagtlah!!


#1 At the swimming pool...

Hye handsome! wah! at first I never thgought a hot guy would go swimming!

Amboi! Tersasar jauhlah! I saw 2 hot dudes with six packs n tegap...wah!!
asal hensem sangat nie?? uuuu lawa sey!! Suka giler! Dah tu, dia berenang dengan
penuh bergaya!! Nama dia Alif and rakhil! Amboi...nama sedap siaaa.... Tapi then
sepupu aku kata, jangan tengok luaran takut dia gay! Alamak!! Tak apalah!!



#2. balik rumah aunty aku.

Wei! Balik rumah, anak sedara kesayangan aku yang 3 orang dah ade kat rumah.
Amboi~~rumah meriah betul dengan kehadiran budak2 kecik nie (balas dendam panggil
orang lain budak kecik since aku dapat panggilan tuw dari kakak aku). Tak cukup dengan
main kejar kejar, habislah satu rumah berkumandang dengan lagu tellytubbies. ya Allah
rupanya dia amik habit aku yang suka tengok tellytubbies waktu aku kecik. Tapi, still
adorable! Lagi lagi tengok rizqi senyum. cair hati aku. tak jadi nak cubit pipi dia yang
puih tuw. Tapi paling best layan Adriana and anak sedara aku yang baru which is Airiz Irdina
bukan abang Airiz eah...so jangan perasan sangatlah...hahahaha...Alah
tengoklah mak sedara dia. Hee ok..dipersilakan nak tampar aku!!

Kene tagged!

Ohoho...aku kene tag ngan 2 member aku...wahahaha...popularnya aku! Raihan...gi matiah kau!
Neh i was just kidding my head off. Well straight to the point, I am gonna answer all the question before
I go bonkers all over the place...hellujah baby!!
Paste this rules...


- each person much post 11 about themselves in their journal

- answer the questions that the tagger set for you in their post and create the new questions for the people you tagged to answer

- you have to choose 11 people to tagged and link them to the post

- go to their page and tell them that you tagged HIM/HER

- NO tag back !

- NO stuff in tagging section about "YOU ARE TAG IF YOU READING THIS"

YOU LEGITIMATELY

(a.k.a REALLY,TRULY,WITH ALL HONEST) have tagged 11 people

About myself....

-I love to pose in front of the mirror...i dont care where the world i am.

-I am snobbish and hot tempered

-I have an elder sister who is very pretty named ZAHRISMA and I am proud of her.

-I tend to cry a lot but hey, i am very self wilted... hahaha....

-I think I am hot...how bout you??

-I think I am nice and polite.... in your dreams raigan! Its a nightmare

-I hate people who curse and swear a lot.

-I love doing things my way and not your way.

-What I do, I must win. I can't accept losing.

-I am very MANJA(poyo giler ayat aku nie) when I am with my elder sister. aka my superwoman.
-I am revengeful type of person and I love creating troubles.muahahaahah...and ask my sister to help me out.


Hmm the answer untuk soalan dari timah dulu yer...


-Parents: ~Roslan Dahlan (papa)
             ~Zeyana Hussain (mama)

-Crush aku eah...hmm capital S and M bukan scandal aku taw...tapi dier pnah keluar ngan aku...muahahahaha...tapi aku lagi suka MR.F...tapi dia cuma anggap aku member dia jer...Sebab aku selalu balik ngan dia!!

-Aku nak villa kat tepi pantai. Aku nak 9A untuk Spm. Aku nak jadi lawyer. And aku nak hidup macam Paris Hilton... (pffth...kau nak bagi aku ke apa yang aku nak nie?? kalau yer, dengan senang hati aku terima...muahahaha)

-Benda?? hmm kalau orang boleh tak?? Aku sayang kakak kesayangan aku, handphone and laptop aku!

-Hmm...sorrylah, aku takde tabiat yang tak baik...semuanya baik...(mengikut akulah)

-Aku nak jumper NUR FATHIA!!! and of courselah pujaan hati aku, ZAIN SAIDIN!

-Aku suka crush aku sebab dia handsome... and yang M tu model kot! takkan taknak...Aku bagi kau pun, agaknya kau nak!

-Kau?? Kau kawan baik aku! Kau kawan sekelas aku! kau, kawan lepak aku! Kau kawan terjun bangunan aku! And kau, kembar siang adik aku, sape lagi kalau bukan Faizah...

-Kau baik...and giler sikit! Tapi aku saaaaaaaaayang kau timah!! hahahaahha

-Aku nak kakak aku sentiasa ada dengan aku...taknak aku pergi dari dia. And aku nak 9A untuk SPM insya'allah!

Aku nak pergi Rome...pastu Paris...pastu London...lagi lagi Trafalgar Square...(untuk shopping) and Aku nak pergi pulau yang cuma ada aku and crush aku jer kat situ untuk honeymoon ala ala prince william and kate winslet gitu (Raihan....kau nak kena makan kasut betul!!) sebab aku suka AIR!! Water is my life. Rock on dude!


Soalan dari Dayana pulak...amboi...penat aku cam nie nyah!!


-Cinta, pengorbanan dan kesetian hmmm??? aku pilih pengorbanan sebab aku nie romantic sikit!


-Han...eean...(dari kawan and family akulah nie~~) tapi dari kakak aku....hmmm...sayang,comel,cantik,darling,hani,sweety,adik hmmm banyak lagilah! pantang aku kalau orang panggil aku HANTU! And NUR RAIHAN ROSLAN sebab cuma mak aku jer yang panggil aku camtu bile dia marah...
Panggil aku rehan and Raihan, aku takkan layan kau!


-Bila aku epak nagn kak amirah and kakak aku kat belakang sekolah. ANd then, kakak aku suap aku sampai kak Amirah jeles...muahahahahah...and waktu tu aku tido kat dalam surau atas kakak aku macam tak ingat dunia!! Hmm lagi satu bila, kali pertama aku jumpa kakak aku and MR.S and Mr.M....best tuh!


-Mestilah suke...tapi kalau aku cakap pelakon jer boleh tak?? Aku suke Lee Dong Wook, Lee Min Ho and Choi Si Won... Kim bum pun aku suke gak...And BTW, Lee Min Ho tu suami aku!!! muahahahaahah


-Rantai yang kapel aku waktu darjah 5 pernah bagi...Ala benda budak budak jer kot!!


-1.Aku ni keras kepala
 2.Aku ni degil! Aku tak suke mengalah dan aku tak boleh kalah!
 3.Aku suka buat orang marah. Suke buat masalah and suka carik pasal.
 4.Aku sayang adik2 aku, and kakak aku.
 5. Aku suka menyibuk!
 6. Au suka spy orang yang handsome.
 7. Aku suka buat orang rasa bersalah and aku suka mainkan perasaan orang (sorry!)
 8. Aku kuat perasan and suka bila kene puji (gi matilah Raihan!)


-Hmm buat masa sekarang, aku dah kemabali single! Tak guna betul! Sebab kau ingatkan aku yang baru putus 2 minggu yang lalu (kot)


-Aku tido, online,makan, kick boxing, main x-box! main psp, tengok tv, main game, and belasah adik aku!! hahahahah and tengok wayang and berenang(kalo kat umah nenek aku) aku makan pun suke lagi lagi kalau call pizza sambil tengok tv...mak aih dunia ni aku yang punyalah sey) and last sekali, aku suka baca buku (lawak?? memang pun..I am a weird bookworm)


-Adalah ptung winnie the pooh, power puff girl, tweety bird and most of all patung anjing yang cute giler! aku tak leyh tido kalau takde patung tu!


-Hmmm kawan aku yang giler is Fatimah, and adik aku sendiri, which is Faizah!! haahahah


-Ngan adik aku, Amir Razif and Ahmad Reza...pastu ngan kawan akulah!!


hmm soalan untuk korang...


-Kalau kau tersadai kat pulau, kau nak bawak kawan baik kau tak?? Apasal?
-Kau suke pakai baju macam mana? Vintage ke apa ke??
-Kau suka warna apa?
-Apa nama panjang kau?
-Kalau kau ada 3 permintaan, apa kau akan mintak?
-Aku suka makan fettucine carbonara. Kau?
-Describe me. 
-Aku ni sapa bagi korang?
-Apa hobi kau? 
-Buat 1 cerita yang menyedihkan!
-Kalau kau tau kau nak mati, apa yang kau akan buat?




Yang ditag ialah:

   Daniel Ismail

                

 Fazril Farhan

Fatin

Khairin Afina

Shuhada Alin

Bella

Farah

Hee lupe namalah!

Aeena

Airiz

Eyra

Okaylah tu kan...aku suke buat benda macam nie...laen kali buat lah lagi!! ^^,

The call

Just now, I called my sister! Alahai....kesiannyer, demam tercampak rupernyer...Well tak sangka 2 minggu aku tinggalkan dia, boleh demam sampai tercampak...hohohohorlics...Kepal hot aku!!
Kesian! Hahahaha...Tapi aku kan adik yang baik, so sedikit sebanyak aku

Aku bajet hot macam minah nie...hahahaha

hilangkan rasa geram dia tu. Lagi lagi, esok dier kertas fizik. Muahahahahahaha.
Oh yeah, tahu tak, dah dekat 2 minggu mengikut kalender masihi. Amboi!
ayat aku tak boleh belah betul. Tapi seriuslah! Bosan giler duduk rumah.
Tapi lagi bosan sebab tak jumpa kakak aku! Rindu giler tahu tak. And biler aku bagitau dier,
dier bley cakap, kalau gitu, tahun depan macam mana?? Kakak tak ada kat sekolah nanti,
Raihan boleh hidup ke? Ewak ewah ewah.... mestilah boleh, cuma dah tak sama jer kot....
Lagipun, superwoman aku dah tak ada! Mestilah terasa kehilangannya. Lagipun,
sapa nak tolong aku kalau aku buat masalah lagi?? Aku ni kan pencipta masalah.
profesional. apa daa Raihan! Then dier cakaplah, dier tgh demam. Kesian kakak aku.
Dah tua2 camni baru nak kena demam tercampak. Apalah! Nak tercampak pun,
lepas SPM lah. Ni tyme pekse add math and fizik gak dier nak demam. Pe daa....
Tapi mana bley pilih hari kan??? Whateverlah! Saaayang kakak! my superwoman!!
Hahahahah...Lawak bodoh betul aku nie!! Kbye!

I live a lie. Please don't trust me!

I live a lie. Please don't trust me with your heart. I just don't want to hurt you that's all.
I am a hypocrite. I am not that truthful what's more when it involves heart and my own feelings.
I lied all that when I said I don't care about you. I cared so much about you. I lied when
I said that I am not mad. The truth is that I am mad and full of jealousy. I lied when I said that
I hate you. Yeah! It's all a lie. I love you so much but I lied about my feelings! So that when I go
one day, you know that I hate you. And you will soon forget me! i lied when I said I don't
miss you at all! I am sorry for all the lies that I made! I miss you so much but what for should
I say that to you? You won't understand. I am going away from your life anyway. It won't make any
difference. It's better for you not to know because if you do, you won't have the heart to live me.
I know. A lie is always a lie. And a liar will always be! I am good at that! So you better watch
out! I am sorry for all the lies that I use to cover my own feelings! You should know that I am not that
bad, nor I am not that nice. I lied a lot! Please, forgive me? If you do, then leave me alone after
that. Or else I'll just accept the fact that you are holding grudge against me and you are not letting me go!
Whatever it is, I hope you will forgive me!

Raihan....stop it!

Huhuhuhu...the topic agak pelik....sebab I am actually talking about myself more...
You know what, i am a teenager who have parents that wants her to change and be matured.
Why? I have no answer for that either! Come on lah.... you told me that you won't tolerate
any hypocrites in this house. Well I am not! I am trying to become my own self.
And here you are saying that "Raihan! Stop acting so childish" "Raihan, grow up"
"Raihan shut up!" "Raihan, don't talk to much. Be like your friends. Be like my friends daughter.

Tak ada kaitan..aku tau!

Be like your cousins." "Raihan stop talking nonsense" "Raihan cut that crap" WTH??
Who are you trying to make me in to?? You expect me to be who you want me to be!
And I can't! Guess what... I can only be myself when I am outside home and when I
hang out with my friends and sisters. I can't be who you want me to be. It's called fake
when I act like that. I put on masks when I am at home. You know why?
It's because you're forcing me to be who I am not! I hate being treated like a matured type of
person. But I hate being treated like a kid. You won't understand. I am real when I am with my sister.
She knows how to treat me right! She knows me very well then you do! And I am confused.

Really deep confused! Help me out! you know why?? It's because, when I am quiet, you said I
am vain. I am snobbish. And you ask me questions as if I am in trouble. You make many conclusion
as if I am in love with someone! Oh come on! i am not an actor who puts on many mask.
Till now, I don't know which one is real. Only one thing for sure, I know I am real when
I am with my sister(vanilla). She even asked me how am I gonna live without her at school
next year. And urm...I am speechless!  And if you people call us lesbi, well one thing for sure
it's my sister so it's my right (hahahaha idiot) ....Now, you really make me hate my life!
Stupidlah!! Whatever! Do you me to be so quiet?? So lonely? So unlifely (ayat aku sendiri)??
Tell me who do you want me to be. I live a life. And I am going to walk through life as
a hypocrite....Just tell me!

Jamuan kelas

Hihihi...my jamuan kelas memang dah lama berlalu....Tapi baru hari ini aku nak citer!
Hehehe...ni memang best sebab at first, I am soooo lazy to go! serious nie!!
Then tetiba, aku dpat tau yg ade seseorang tu ikut sekali, mak aih...I woke up
and clean the room! honestly, katil tu dah macam ada ribut! (pffft aku tidur nie agak ganas)
janganlah ikut....Then, hmmm aku call semua kawan aku, and pakse dorang datang awal.

Tak guna!! macam aku jer!!

Janji at 10! Hmm tak guna! Ade ke patut, aku dengan farhana dah tercatuk kat situ at 11
tapi yang budak laki tu, kul 1 baru nampak batang hidung! tak guna betullah! Hmm..yg dah
samapi cuma brape kerat jer mcm A,F dengan sepupu F. Hmm 'him' tak sampai lagi.
So kitorang eat at pizza hut. Sementara tunggu mamat sokai nie a.k.a 'him' apalagi,
makanlah kitorang.Hahahahaah...padan muka, sape soh lambat! Seronoknyer,,,dier duduk tepi aku!!
Wahahahahaah..... then waktu nak gi tengok wayang, 'himdengan aku kat tengah2 sambil diapait oleh F and Farhan kat tepi belah kiri kanan kitorang... Then ntah camne, Farhana nk terlanggar couple
cina nie while F nak terlanggar bangku (Apa kesengal sangatlah kawan aku nie) sokitorang terlanggar.
aku boleh buat buat marah si Farhana padahala peh,,,seronok giler giler nih!! nak melayang jiwa.
Lagipun, baju dier lawa....and awal awal lagi, dia dah puji aku,.
Nasib baik dia tak tahu aku minat dier....muahahahahaha!! So kira oklah tu...lagipun,

Itulah masalahnyer, dia ada ramai peminat

kalau dalam kelas, dia akan minta pendapat aku...nie yang best tau!! Then waktu balik,
kitorang terpisah (mestilah terpisah, takkan aku nak angkut bawak dier balik umah...tak pasal2 nanti)

School holiday!

Hahahaha....
you guys semua sukakan holidaykan?? Sukalah korang...aku??
Hampeh!! bosan giler siaaa baik gi sekolah. At least dapat jugak tengok

mamat mamat hensem (^^,) jumper kawan dan jumper cikgu (aku tahu bahasa
aku agak poyo dan sesuai ditampar). Tapi serius tu lagi best dari duduk umah.
Tengok tv! Bosan tau tak!! Dahlah, duduk umah nie, macam duduk dalam
entahlah...tak ada ayat yang lebih sesuai! yang pasti aku memang bosan.
Dahlah aku nak lepak nagn kawan aku pun tak boleh! haiaya!! Hidup apakah ini??
Boleh giler campur sewel aku camnie... bukan tu ajer, mak aku soh aku keluar dengan
kawan adik aku bulan 12 nanti!! wahahahahaahahah apa dia fikir aku nie babysitter ke??
Aku pun ada hidup aku sendirilah!! Tahu tak??!!! Aku duduk dalam bilik, kena marah!
Keluar dari bilik, kena marah! Tidur awal kena marah. Tidur lambat pun kena marah!
What the hell mey?? Hello!! Can a teenager get a life here?? Tahun depan nak SPM,
bukan selalu nak seronok2 macam nie tahu tak?? Dah tu, cuti nie, ada ke patut aku kena pergi library
AJE!!And swimming.... okay it might be exciting if I am a kid!! Puh-lees lah!! I am not
a KID!! Dahlah!! aku malas nak tambah dosa sebab mengumpat jer!! K bye!!---